its gone, over, and never coming back.
thanks for the memories & experiences.
i dont know why, but i'll try to improve.
i kinda knew that it would end this way.
oh well, congrats to xinyee,xinwei,zilin,birdie,yijin& the many others.
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today, IS the worst day of my life.
well, after duty that is.
Iris & were still happy dancing..
congrats girl!(: you deserve it.
well, then, GEOG common test.
map reading was shit.
i didnt even know a single thing about wheres what & whats where.
then, yah chapter2 i also never really read much. so it was practically crap.
after commontest, i dontknow why, i just suddenly brokedown.
thanks to those who comforted me (: i really mean it.
but i know lah, just let me be, i just need alittle time.
thanks to birdie,june,sarah,etc. that group that gave me goodie bag (: thankyou!
thanks,jamce, for being there.
& thanks teammys(: you guys are damn nice (:
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i really just dont understand lah.
oh well, so i spent my whole morning crying .__.
recess, yah like dat lorh.
english, copied notes about report writing.
MT, got CT back. 52/100 ... 0.0
so close to failing! but thankgod that i passed.
then went back to class for CIP planning.
we plan to do goodie bag like june they all (:
but idk what we are gonna put inside.
then went hme with celine & jess.
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after 28days ,excluding junehols , finally we know the truth.
oh well, its gone now.
it cant be a mistake.
its not that simple this time.
then, maybe it could be , but now.
they've gone through that list so many times.
there cant be a mistake.
i had fun during this period.
thankyou for everything.
the experience & memories.
thankyou.
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mydreams and hopes are crahsed once again.
i though once was enough, i thought the same thing wouldn't happen again.
i though it was better this time.
i thought i was performing way better.
but i guess not.
the truth has surfaced.
getting rejected once is enough.
now twice?
im not going to let a third time happen, cause.. im not trying again.
it isn't as easy as you think it is.
just " not in not in lorh" .
i rmb P3, MrsLam(then mslim) asked me to go see the list.
so i got out of class, ran down the stairs.
& i stared hard at the list.
i saw many names.
i narrowed it down by looking at MY class only as thats what mslim wanted to know.
i saw, a few names.
i looked for mine, NOTHING.
i memorized those who got in & went up.
mslim was shocked.
she tried helping me, but no avial.
ohkay, nevermind, i was on the verdge of crying but i held it back.
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i had to bear with people who kept boasting to me about their TIE & their BADGE.
well, i thought there will be a second chance.
yes, there was a second chance.
but it came with a second rejection.
this time, i was again close to tears.
but i held it back.
after the paper, i stared into space.
nth could be done, the tears just rolled down my cheeks.
i really dont like this  feeling.
i went over the list 3 times.
just to double check.
still nth.
i just wonder, what have i done wrong this time..
well, P3 they didnt tell me either so. ohwell.
i guess, i was too quite.
too soft.
oh well, its over now. D:
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