ARGH!IM PISSED WITH MYSELF!

morning, went out for breakfast with AI at MacDonald's.

after that we walked arnd the market.

ibought chocolate, NERDS & a pink guava drink (:

im broke now!x_x

anw, after breakfast& shoppin arnd.

she came to my house & we just slacked luhh.

at 1pm+ i went over.

aunty kim then sent me to sch :D

i was kindaa early=.=

blah,

TRAINING

argh! im friggin pissed with myself lah! :@

i mean, we train that time, okay..

then jiaolian say play survival again.

):

i got picked like the last few lah.

& almost the last cause chantelle actually wanted to change person D:

i alr, lost quite alot of confidence in myself everytime i get choosen the last few luhh.

anw, I SUCKED THROUGHOUT THE GAME AGAIN!

like, OMG LUH!

D:

throughout the game, my best was only ONE miserable spike.

]:

CHANTELLE , CASSIE IM VERYVERYVERYVERYVERY SORRY!

im sorry!

you told me to have confidence in myself.

i tried, i couldnt really do it.

you asked if i was hiding anything frm you all.

i thought.

well, that thin i REALLY REALLY cannot say ):

if i say, u all will =\

nvm, :D sorry lahh.

anw, i'll try harder again luhh ): i promise you!

&& i almost cried again D: ! but i told myself that i cannot be a weakling.

=)

I WILL TRY MY BEST!

owh ya, today no need do wheel barrow (: yipee!

it went like this.

Mr Ang: Byebye, sec1s can go alr!

Me:REALLY AHH?!?!?!?

Germaine: SHHHHHH!!!SHHH!SHHHHHHH!!!!!

Me: * took a towel & cover my face & laugh like mad*

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teehee :D

hais, i was quite sad anw,

owh & i try away my bottle then it when in.

then sophia threw away her bottle then it went through the other side of the dustbin >.<>

i tot it was the funniest thing that happened for that day

BUT

when i was walking out of the school gate......

aunty kim's car drove pass.

ailin opened the car window & then starting scream " AMANDA!!AMANDA!!" i ran towards the car BUT the traffic light changed to green

ailin called me on my phone ...

IT WHEN SMTH LIKE THIS:

me: hello?

ailin:ehh, we goin to turn right infront..

me: so what i do? ( start running towards the car)

ailin: follow the car.

me: SLOW DOWN LAHH! the car so fast!!!!

ailin:hahahaa! hurry runNN!!! RUNNNN!!!

me: IM RUNNING LUHH!!

ailin: run ahh!

me: okayokay!!!

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i hung up & ran like madd.

finally reached the car then i flopped into the sit.

weilin was like LAUGHING LIK MADD.

actually, aunty kim & ailin was too luhh.

LOL.

me too!
IT WAS MY GREATEST LAUGH OF THE DAY.

i tot thats what frens are for right?
they make you laugh.

i totally forgot i was like super sadd lahh.
:D

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had dinner,

went down to play with ailin.

OMG , we did the dumbest things ever lah!

this is what we did.

1)play volleyball, got bored.

2)play badminton, ailin keep smacking down!

3)WE HAD A ROLLING COMPETITION!

YES! it was a rolling competition.

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

we rolled on the floor sia!

I WON THREE TIMES LAH!

:D she lost! it was a match of.

3-0 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

teehee(:

then i played vb & she played badminton.

we slacked & danced then got one lady look.

i was lik , " AHHH!" then i lie down on the floor.

& ailin was like running in circles around me.

Note To Self: Never Lie Down On The Ground When Ailin Is Around, She Will Only Step On YOU!

blah,

anw, she scared me & say got what black cat.

make me dont dare to go home!!

then i got to call my mum , ask her to talk on the phone to accompany me >.<

crap her!
blah.

ps/ i know i can do it! but what i dont know is why i am not performing!

when in nervous i tend to just whack the ball with no sense of direction. I have to stop spiking the ball once it comes over & i dont know what to do with it. I have got to stop dissapointing the seniors . I have got to stop getting choosen the last few! God, i hope im not asking for too much, but can you help me? Help me have the confidence in myself & the confidence to play properly on court.

pps/ IM HAPPY! thankyou GOd!! now i know that he is not ignoring me (:

THANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOU!

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