im just hoping, ):
hoping for the very little shimmer of light to become something big inawhile.
like the light at the end of a tunnel.
i just cant give up.
i mean, not now.
still waiting.
idontknow..
it seems impossible at an angle but very possible at another.
i dont know..
i dont know..
i just loveyou & i dont think im ready to just let go like that.
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now i just hope for trainings, where i can just
spike/serve a ball dang hard when im pissed.
& i can just take my mind off things.
even if its tiring.
it just makes me forget all my problems & troubles
& everything i've been worrying & thinking about.
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boy, ily ):