is this fact so hard to accept?
even if it is, i accepted yours.
can we just be friends?
i missed those times.
i remembered every single word you said, from the camp till now.
when i listen to the songs that were played then, a strange feeling would follow.
then, a string of memories, the memories, good or bad. all of them would just fill my mind.
flashbacks, that seems so real.
dreams, seems real but untrue.
sometimes, i just wished it would happen.
sometimes, i just wouldn't want to wake up.
i just want to live that dream forever.
but that isn't possible isit?
yeah, i know , it seems like fun.
taunting me with it.
i dont see what fun you get from it.
i know you know how this feels
& you dont like it either.
so why treat others this way?
i just dont understand.
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ihatelove.
ihateif.
ihatethefactthatiunknowinglyfellinlovewithyouandcanneverturnbacktimeandimstuckwithlovingyou.
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maybe hate is too strong a word.
dislike.
i dont exactly detest every second of what happened with that, so i dont exactly HATE it.
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ps/jess,its understandable, everyone is going through some sort of the same thing. im with you nomatterwhat(:
pps/whydoesitallhavetoendupthisway; ilikefairytales,thewaytheyend,butinreality,itjustneverseemstoendthisway.
ppps/ily;♥ if you aren't aware, it has been 6mths.