IS IT THAT DIFFICULT?
all i wanted was this year to pass smoothly.
with the best teammates i could ever had.
& best frends.
teammates all working tgt happy & scoring well for all matches.
best friends loving each other.
but everything is the opposite, other then the teammates.
D: why?
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best frend hates best frend.
J hates S
S hates J
why? i love the both of you all the same.
J u are funny, loving, just a fren i wud want.
S u are kind, funny, love animals just like me, my volleyball mate <3>
but somehow the both of you hate each other.

take this aftnn as an example.
i went out with J.
S wanted to go along.
J obiviously isnt happy.
& the rest wasnt really happy about it too.
they ran. i chased. & we ended up running away.
S was sad & angry.
NIGHT,
S asked me why.
i told her they run i chase luh.
then S started to say that i dont understand her.
& then i said somestuff agian.
then, S just kept saying that i dont understand her.
i told her that yea, i dont understand her but does she understand me?
S got pissed off & said LETS NOT BE FRIENDS.
well, obiviously, im not happy about it. in fact, im sad.
i prayed, i asked for directions to go.
im lost.
im in a delima.
bestie 1 goes left; bestie 2 goes right.
im in the middle deciding where to go.
both sides has their advantages & disadvantages.
its a real tough choice to make.
so why cant you decide on ONE route & we all travel on it tgt.

ALL i wan was frens like WEILIN's
she comes back, sounding happy (:
telling us what happen in sch.
she nvr tells us things like this b4.
she only goes " ya! they are so funny!"
blahblah D:
why?i only wanted frens who were like this.
pri sch; i had frens like this too. well, they dont hate each other, but its just, i prefer goin with one.
i tot, i could come into this sch, start a new life.
get things freshen up & get new besties who love each other.
well, i dont know, either THIS batch of students is always like this OR i am just no good at getting besties.
well mayb we dont talk about S&J
just talk about the 6 of us in the group.
u all always get pissed of at each other.
why? if u think you are best frens, why cant u just agree with each other & just give in at times.
mayb its just me, i keep sticking my nose into ppl's business & try to solve their problems when i CANNOT EVEN SOLVE MY OWN.
come on, i treasure all of u equally.
why must you make it so tough?
why must you make me choose?
well, S, by saying LETS NOT BE FRENS, u might help me solve the second why, BUT hold on. i treasure our frenship alot! so why must we end it? I dont wish too..
well, currently, EVERYTHING is not going right.
6 frens - ALWAYS DO NOT AGREE WITH EACH OTHER.
S&J- HATE EACH OTHER BUT I LOVE BOTH.
you- THINGS ARE JUST STALE;
family- DADDY IS BUSY WORKING IN KL; MUMMY IS BUSY WORKING & HAVING HER OWN ACTIVITIES AT NIGHT. SIBLINGS- NONE! Pets- NONE
school-STUDIES; OKAY SO FAR, ONLY MT.
LIFE- IM STRUGGLING WITH LIFE; BUT NO ONE CARES.
do you know that in school, how i act;how i behave/ in front of frens, how i act & behave covers up what my life is at home?
life is just boring, mummy is out or comes hme at 8pm. Sometimes we share problems & stuff but most of the time she does her stuff & i do mine.
daddy; in KL, weekend, share with him, he might not understand, on the phone every night, exp. cant talk long. but i know you wud if im willing to share but, its okay. dont worry about me.
Do you know that at home, im actually a very boring & lonely kid? a kid that just longs for her mum to come home. longs for her frens to be tgt, so that can have another less problem to deal with.
at home, i mayb sad * lonely. in sch, i try my best to my happy cheery bubbly so that i can entertain & make ppl laugh.
its fun hearing your frens laugh their hearts out.
you know they enjoy your company while you enjoy theirs.
i just wish someone would just listen to all of my problems & help me solve them.
please.
D';
* dang! i smuged my history notes!*
anw, please frens, i treasure our frenship LOADS.
boy, ily, can you help me? can you lend me a shoulder to lean on?... no ):
wadevah, im off to cuddle up in a corner, cry my heart out, go to slp & hope i wake up to a perfect world.
IT TAKES TWO HANDS TO CLAP;