prethee pleaseee

dear god,
pls, can you help me =}
can help me make him not ignore me ? pls~
pretty pls wif sugar on top =3
i really miss him & i wish he would reply my messages or be online.
& he can just start a topic.
&then talk abt it.
cause i really dont know what to talk to him abt.
i just wanna talk to him = D

amen.

{♥}

imy;ily~
i really cant survive without you.
i just feel restless,etc.
well, i dont know but
mayb its just today.
the hmewrk and stuff are driving me up the wall.
im tired.
=/
haiz.
buhh-byee~
i do JIAN BAO aft DINNNERR!
i promise! i think...=}
or not how.. kena scolded tmr sehh.

=\

god, please help me.
i just feel like goin to slp & waking up hoping that eveything would just go back to normal.
& my chinese jian bao would be done!
its irritating! .
how i wished i studied harder for mt.
=[
now im like suffering here..
sucks.
& then you nvr rply message / on9
=[
and i look at the pe t-shirt i worry abt tmr.!
then dunno why i suddenly also feel like just taking the can of pringles & sit infront of the tv.
but then aft 5mins.
i feel like doin smth else again!.
i wanna get the jian bao done but urgh.
dunno how to read the freaking paper lahhs!
i wanna get this jian bao& pe for tmr over &done wif.
sorry if i get irritated wif you =[/
its just. i dont know..
today just dont seem right.
its just like everything is in a mess.
total mess.
then things abt tmr goin back to nlps.
they wanna meet here and there. im really confuse and then kaixin also want me to go wif her.
of course i wanna go wif her. she is like my super BFF lahhs.
but i promise evan they all lerhs.
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im in a toal mess right now =[
jian bao got to hand up when? i dunnO!!
god, please, i need help.
please help HIM too.
if you have to help him first.
i can wait =/
thankyou lord.
i need your help right now.
amen


=/
imy;ily
♥
as in seriously.
=[
you are like me happiness.
if you are not arnd nth is.
aiyohh, see the jian bao oni xinfan lah!
stupid thing =[[
dunno how to read!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wee, i suck at chinese~ i know!
dont have to rub in! or not you die.
='
okayokayy.
i shall..
i dont know..
try again?
haiiz...

hey, =[

i miss you badly,
i dont know why.
today didnt see you.
=:::[
the whole day was so draggy.
today is depressing lahh,
the pe t-shirt sizes thing.
the pe-t-shirt after that.
and everything.
=''[
i hope tmr wont be like this ..
i seriously hope so.
god, please dont take everything away.
my life was very cheerful&happy.
until today.
& i dont know why.
please help me.
thankyou.

amen

why is it me

when i think i see you along the corridors, my heart beats super fast.
when you are around, im too embarrassed to look up.
when you are not there, im longing to see you.
you are perfect in my eyes.
everytime i walk out of the class, i pray that mayb i'll get to watch you head for your next class secretly from behind a pillar.
during recess. i'll search the whole canteen for you , without my friends noticing.
when i find you.
i'll just smile inside my heart.
when i see you.
my heart melts.
but what do you think of me?
a pest?
when i message you, you ignore me.
when i chat with you, you ignore me.
how i wish i had the courage to call you and ask you why.
i would be most satisfied if i could just sit next to you for 5secs.
just to let you know.
even after ytd.
i havent given up on you.
i want you to know that if you think that no one cares abt you. i'll be there caring for you.
if you think your life is a mess, i'll be your cleaner and clean it up.
if you are tired of your life, i'll cheer you up and make your day.
if you are still not satisfied, i'll try my very best and make you gimme a warm smile thats from deep down inside of you.
im never giving up =/
determination,
persistance
i'll be there for you when you fall.
but as far as i know you, you will never fall. =]

=''[

i thought once was enough.
but everytime i whatever you do play in my head.
i just breakdown , its okay.
it takes time.
x3

='[

cant believe whats happening right now.
i shall not tell you though.
its kinda weird.
i never felt like this before.
you just seem so perfect in my eyes.
i dont want to let you go.
even though it was just a few drop of tears.
i feel much better. =/
i should have done my hmewrk first.
cause im not in the mood alrdy.
i hope i dont burst out crying when i see you.D=
its okay..
i'll try and get over it.
byee~

=[

learning to let go =/
no one knows how i'll feel.
deep inside.
im trying to forget.
but sadly its not as easily done as said.
everyone tells me too.
is it really true?
why is it so?
please i need an answer.
a sudden urge to burst into tears.
but i thought again is it worth it?
for you , it is.
felt like flooding the whole universe.
then i'll be dead.
but my life is love-ed much more.
at least its always by me.
the truth hurts. but at least now i know.
i know what to do.
i just thought mayb it could last through my birthday.
but well, happy birthday to me.
i got myself a lovely birthday present.
feeling down .
its seriously not mood swings. but it seems like one.
this morning i was just.. =)
through out the whole,
hopefully looking for you.
during recess, i was =}
i had my reasons.
after school , was a =D from me.
my reasons are locked in my heart.
but now its a D'= from me.
im sorry ,
the memories will still linger in my mind
even mayb weeks,months,years later.
a small trace of your smile will still be stuck in my mind.
i just want to let you know.
you make my day everytime i see you.
even after today.
my day would be made if i look at you.
your action and words are still stuck in my head.
even from the very first day.
well, its goodbye =..] from me to you.